Why I'm starting now

Hey, I’m Saurabh. A designer by profession and a curious child at heart. A few of my close friends had recently suggested that I start a blog, and it made sense. Who am I kidding, it was almost 6 months ago and I’m still stuck on my first article. For the longest time, I wasn’t aware of why. Maybe it was just a lack of ideas, perhaps I’m bad at articulation or I just need to learn how to write. The workbook by Julian Shapiro did help a lot but still, I was stuck. It was the first step all over again - until recently.

I think I’m just scared. Getting stage fright, just digitally. I’m scared that my ideas aren’t worth being out there in the world. I’m scared about what I will do if my opinion evolves in the future. I know it will, it always does. Will I keep getting ideas? Will I be able to write enough? The list goes on and on. I know a few of you out there who are just amazing at writing and I’m glad to be friends with them. They keep iterating that these issues also haunt them. The next step is always a little blurry until you lift up your foot for it. But it’s hard to have faith when you’ve been stuck on your first article for months.

This article sounds a little demotivating but that’s exactly the reason I’m making this my first article now. It’s a reminder for me to not go so hard on myself. I don’t have to write a lot. I don’t have to write regularly. I don’t have to expect something amazing out of it. I just need to express myself. Put my thoughts out there. If my mind evolves, I’ll write about my new fresh perspective. I don’t have to disown how I used to think. I don’t have to be scared of how I’m going to think.

I hope this article realigns me when I’ve lost my way or just down in the dumpies. It’s a hug to myself to just go easy. And I’ll try my best to make it feel like a warm one.

Till the next one. See ya.